Wigan Warriors forward Ben Flower says the standing ovation he was given upon his return from suspension was not deserved.
Flower returned to action against Warrington Wolves on Thursday following a six-month ban after his red card for punching an already knocked out Lance Hohaia in October's Grand Final defeat to St Helens.
As he came on as a replacement during the first half of Wigan's 30-20 win over Warrington, Flower was given a rousing reception from the home fans at the DW Stadium.
"I was surprised how calm I was, with everything going through my head about doing the right things," Flower said.
"But I didn't expect such a big loud roar and a standing ovation. For the fans to stick by me like that is a credit to them.
"It was lovely for them to do that but at the end of the day I do not deserve that because I let the club down massively.
"I will get back to being a more aggressive player as I get fitter but aggressive does not mean that I am going to be a dirty player.
"What happened in the Grand Final was a massive mistake."